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I am restless, I am restless
I am restless, looking for you
I am restless, I run like the ocean to find your shore
I’m looking for you
- Switchfoot: “Restless”
As I’m writing this, I’m expecting my baby to be due any day (update: Ellie was born on June 7th).
Everyone tells me to catch up on my sleep while I can, because when the baby comes I could be waking up at all hours of the night because of her.
What I tell them is that it’s already status quo for me.
As much as I love sleep, waking up well after the rooster crows and the occasional three hour nap, getting there and staying there has always been a difficult thing for me.
When I go to bed at night, I can’t get to sleep. When I do get to sleep, I still wake up in the middle of the night, usually several times.
Part of this is surely because I get wound up during the day and it takes my mind a long, long time to wind down.
A lot of the rest has to do with weird biological functions that I don’t understand.
At least, those are my excuses.
I don’t want to tell you about how I stay up because I know that I didn’t do enough with my day.
I don’t want to tell you about how I have a fear that tomorrow is going to be the worst day of my life.
I don’t want to tell you about my weaknesses. I don’t want to mention my lack of trust. I don’t want to address my shortcomings.
Sometimes I can’t sleep because I forget that Jesus said this:
Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.
If there’s any hope, it’s in Jesus.
Have you ever had trouble finding rest?